This video features Polly, who was originally known as 'little Donna'. At this point Dodds hadn't come out as the Core (original) self so Polly was the earliest one the system (and herself) knew of. This is what she wrote at that time:
In DID splitting may have begun as young as around 2 years old. This was the case for me. Because of this the others can later believe that as the earliest of the split away selves, that I am a child, didn't grow up, is younger than them, less intelligent, less deep, even endangering if they fear a discriminatory society.
I was among the first who had to give up and because of this can be the most illusive, the last to speak vocally to others, to interact or make friends, to appear outside of the room, the house, the front gate, or may only appear with one special trusted external person.
As one of the earliest selves, watching all the coping strategies of the later selves, all the survival skills and life skills they developed, may easily feel lesser than the others, and the others can easily reinforce the incapability of the early selves, especially if they fear the world could still hurt them.
I made this video for my other selves to observe my views, speaking them out externally and verbally in the world they protect me from and regularly behave as if I'm not ready for.
This is my declaration that I am ready for my place among them in the external world, not as their 'child' but as their equal, their sister. I want them to empower me and walk beside me and slow down so I can walk beside them.
Those of you still in this process, I hope this helps you believe in your younger selves and their place in this world. The world is still scary, it will have echoes of the horrors you may have come from. But with support you can dare and can try to claim your place with the team, fully expressive and turn taking in the external world, on the road to integration if that is your journey.
Donna et al
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including my consultation page for DID where I offer online Peer Support
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