When you had some kind of Awakening experience, it’s quite likely that you already experienced what is called a Dark Night of the Soul or that you will experience it in various degrees along the journey.
In this episode, we are discussing our own experiences with the Dark Night of the Soul, what it seems to be and what the purpose might be as well as some advice for how to deal with it.
What is the Dark Night of the Soul?
On lonerwolf.com, I found some good indications for the state of a Dark Night of the Soul:
- You feel a deep sense of sadness, which often verges on despair (this sadness is often triggered by the state of your life, humanity, and/or the world as a whole).
- You feel an acute sense of unworthiness.
- You have the constant feeling of being lost or “condemned” to a life of suffering or emptiness.
- You possess a painful feeling of powerlessness and hopelessness.
- Your will and self-control is weakened, making it difficult for you to act.
- You lack interest and find no joy in things that once excited you.
- You crave for the loss of something intangible; a longing for a distant place or to “return home” again.
- The ultimate difference between depression and the Dark Night of the Soul is that depression is usually self-centric, whereas the Dark Night is philosophical in nature and is accompanied by existential reflections.
- Also, when depression ends, not much changes in your life in terms of your beliefs, values, and habits. However, when the Dark Night of the Soul ends, everything in your life is transformed, and life becomes wondrous again.
- A true Dark Night of the Soul leaves a long-lasting impact on you – it changes you completely. When you exit a Dark Night, you will discover that something is always taken away from you (for the better), such as your beliefs, your perceptions, your former meaning in life, or even in rare cases, your ego.
- I don’t understand. Why am I alive? Why do I experience life? I don’t know why I am here now. I don’t see the point of living my life. I don’t want anything, not material /physical achievements, not relationships, not entertainment, nothing. I don’t know what to do with this body, mind, and feelings. Or maybe I just experience this life too intensely until I am numbed. But why?
Before any true growth or healing can occur, there must be a process of destruction and complete annihilation of everything you thought would bring you happiness.
To become who you really are has nothing to do with adding layers of “truth” on top of you. It is much more a shedding away of all layers that are untrue. But this is a destructive process and asks you to step into the Underworld of yourself. There is no other way. You have to face your shadows, your fears as only when they are being seen, when the light of awareness hits them, they have to start to move, losen their grip and then and only then, they can be transformed into the empowering force they actually are.
Asking for help, asking for companionship and compassion, asking for solitude, asking and granting yourself a time out. Lay down, all cuddled up in fetus position, go out, run! Cry, get silent. Feel or acknowledge not being able to feel. Whatever. Just, please, don’t be hard on yourself. You only experience something due to experience: This can not be "it". The way we are living our lifes – this just can not be all. Which amount of fear will I have to let go in order to face this truth and also taking the necessary steps in order to change that?
You will find out. Luck you.
Links to topics that came up:
Pratyabhijina:
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Jean-Yves Leloup:
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