I don't even know where to begin with this. This level completely killed me. I was a much happier person before I started this and I let it consume me. It's not this level's fault though, it was either this or just another level that would've done it. I'm so lucky that this had a good ending. I started this back in Summer 2022 expecting to do nothing more than some silly short wave challenge runs. I genuinely loved this level. For the first three months I made steady progress getting list percent exactly. After this though things definitely took a turn for the worst. I got worse and way less consistent for reasons unexplainable. After eight months, on March 16th, 2023, I got 83%. An attempt I will never forget. Here I am 21 months later, with a completion that to be honest, sucks. I became so bad on mouse that I literally had no choice but to switch to keyboard at the end of 2023. Not saying that's a bad thing as it was kind of my saving grace temporarily. Throughout the entire 13 month period between my 83% run and completing the level, 12 of those months were spent in a state of complete hopelessness. I could not do the most simple shit because of certain click patterns that my body could not physically do consistently. This is why I use spacebar 22 times throughout my run. I'm disappointed in myself for doing this. This level feels so much easier with this strategy that I'd only say it's slightly harder than The Golden. I'm disappointed that I had to resort to this but what can I expect, I never do anything right. In January 2024, I had to fully drop the level due to just simply being awful yet again. This led me to what I believe was my first actual depressive episode in my entire life. I have never felt anything like what the month following this was. I felt so fucking worthless that I couldn't do what I had already invested 18 months of my life doing. But thankfully, I randomly decided to use spacebar in the middle of March and this completely saved me. With this, I am probably quitting the game as I find it hard to be motivated to beat anything that isn't a new hardest of at least close to it.

As for my TikTok community which is where I really care the most about my platform, I couldn't have done it without the immense support from you guys. I started Slaughterhouse at around 500 followers and had grown to 20,000 followers by the end of it. I was pulling an average 300 viewers per stream by the end of this journey. I met a lot of really awesome people. People who cared about me for who I am and not just some slave who plays this game all day. Of course a lot of the audience on there are still morons but it's easy to ignore those guys and focus on the good ones out there. I've had a lot of people say they enjoy my streams for my character and personality and it really means a lot. I really wish I didn't feel the need to quit here but I just don't enjoy streaming anything else. I find myself getting irrationally angry and just making a complete fool out of myself. I'm truly gonna miss streaming, it was what I looked forward to most days.

From July 10th, 2022 to April 13th, 2024

Attempts: 280,498

River+ (857)
50% [x75], 51% [x266], 52% [x151], 53% [x115]
54% [x18], 55% [x60], 56% [x21], 57% [x18]
Iris+ (133)
58% [x8], 59% [x11], 60% [x23]
61%, 62% [x5], 63% [x51]
64% [x5], 65% [x2], 66% [x4]
Cuber+ (24)
75% [x3], 76%, 77%
78% [x2], 80% [x4], 81%
82% [x3], 83% [x3], 85% [x2]
CDMusic+ (3)
92%, 93%, 100%

Level Rating: 9/10
Level Enjoyment: 9/10

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