Committing myself to the 'do the work' in producing this succession of videos. I felt the resistance particularly strongly today, and therefore feel all the more fulfilled and at peace with myself having upload this.
I have found that this current state is optimal for me. The mistake I have so often made is when I get to this point, trying to reach even higher highs, in the form of impulsive pleasure or pushing myself too hard (which is a dangerous vice all in its own - a more subtle and therefore deadly form of resistance).
I have to keep this up, and in doing so I think will get to a stage where in managing the present day in this way, I will not have to worry as much about the future. There is a certain quality to doing the work everyday no matter what, and the necessary planning that goes along with it that calms the mind tremendously. I will have to not get ahead of myself, and continue to get out of my own way.
Talk soon,
James
