LYRICS:
[Verse 1: Lucidious]
What if I told you that I didn't feel good enough and I'm broken
What if I said that I'm losin' my faith and been struggling with coping
Been stuck for a while
When I look at the clock man I feel like it's frozen
Then again time is just flying too quick
And I'm losing devotion
Truth is I feel no emotion
Bottled it up and all I feel is rage
And I would be lying if I looked at you and said I'm not afraid
What if I never get through this shit
What do I do if I can't find my way
And I know that my father has been counting on me to carry our name
Speakin' of him and I got to be honest
We ain't really speakin' these days
I've been scared that I won't get to know him before the day he fades away
My family fought a lot when I was growin' up
What can I say? (What can I say?)
What can I say?
By fightin', there ain't really nothin' to gain
[Pre-Chorus: Lucidious]
I know that the sun is out there somewhere
But I've been livin' in rain
Can we quit playin' games
I'm standin' right here and I'm ready to change
And Mama I promise to give you the world if I make it to fame
Put you both on a stage and make it so everyone's screamin' your name
[Chorus: Josh Woods]
In times like this I see your face
Wish you didn't leave this place
Searchin' for the reason why
So take a moment of silence, goodbye
[Verse 2: Lucidious]
Give me a second
I wanna say something to my little brother
When you get older, your father is not gonna be with your mother
I'm 23 years older than you, I know it's kinda confusing
Forget all the bullies that make fun of you, it's just for their amusement
Let go of negative, seek out the light
Develop yourself, you should journal and write
Speak with integrity, treat women right
And you don't gotta drink every typical night
Being popular really ain't everythin'
Nah don't give into that hype
And it's okay to forgive the people that hurt you
But don't give in twice
And to each of my sisters
I know we been drifted, our parents divorced
We all moved away, and the family shifted
Yeah we visit on Christmas
But even the holidays' different
Got to make something out of this gift that God has graciously gifted
[Pre-Chorus: Lucidious]
I know that the sun is out there somewhere
But I've been livin' in rain
Can we quit playin' games?
I'm standin' right here and I'm ready to change
And Mama I promise to give you the world if I make it to fame
Put you both on a stage and make it so everyone's screamin' your name
[Chorus: Josh Woods]
In times like this I see your face
Wish you didn't leave this place
Searchin' for the reason why
So take a moment of silence, goodbye
[Verse 3: Lucidious]
Give me a second
I owe an apology to a few people
I regret a few things and I made some mistakes when I gave into evil
To all my exes I'm sorry I know I was often deceitful
But after Veronica cheated, I gave up and didn't treat future girls equal
I'm sorry to all that I pushed away when I fell deep in depression
I never gave enough attention to people I love so I just started ruinin' friendships
I guess that I taken the easy way out by rapping confessions
This is a passion of mine and the only way that I can deal with my stresses
And I get emotional every time I stop and think about Taylor
Still can't believe that you took your own life away just to get rid of these haters
I just hope that you found some peace and serenity in your decision
No one knew what you were going through
Then again maybe we just didn't listen
To my granny, I wish that I said goodbye before the day that you left
Not telling you how much I love you is something that I still regret
But I know you're in heaven and that it's all okay
One day I'll be with you, and all my fans will be screamin' my name
[Outro]
This song is dedicated to Taylor Eller. We love you. And may you rest in peace
