I know now that I can never make new friends or subscribers because I deleted so many channels here on Youtube due to being harassed and humiliated,Youtube has stagnated everything about me that I sought to accomplish.This will be my last live video blog on Youtube.I know now people like Wolfbracker are in the loop or clique so his close captions remain flawless while mine do not make sense.It has nothing to do with my speech,nothing to do with my content.It has to do with being here too long and deleting channels like the original CosmicTruthNetwork,which was a success I can never take back.Slowly,I see others gaining friends and followers,like I once did,and I iignored the truth of it all.I simply no longer matter to this site.People like Wolfbracker do not know I exist or will ever feature my video blogs or any works I do because they are in the clique.I do not know which way to turn.Where to go from here.I feel truly alone now.None of anything I did or do now really matters to anyone out there.It is my fault for not viewing your videos regularly,I know.It is all give and take and I have been here so long,since 2007,I truly forgot how to care about anything.Caring demands attention to others and I simply am so hurt by the cruel fate of my health and poverty situation,I lost that loving feeling for others.I am truly sorry that I did not view more of your videos and works.It is nobodies fault but mine and I have to take account of it.Livevideo was my home.Once that died,a part of me died with it,the part that cared.I do not matter here or anywhere now.It is all a cruel,sick joke with no punch line.I will attempt to do different videos but know Youtube will never feature them or condemn them as they cannot take me seriously.I feel empty,drained of all life now.

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