03/07/2024 Update: We're over 200k now? I have more thoughts way below whatever's here now. You'll find downloads as well, but please be warned the description is LONG. VERY LONG.

As someone asked, here's the AddMusicK sources (they're just modified from the stock songs that come with AddMusicK, please don't credit me for these as I literally just used the find+replace function on a few notes)
Underwater (this video): [ Ссылка ]
Title Screen: [ Ссылка ]
Welcome (to Hell): [ Ссылка ]

...Well, here's my thoughts.
Sooo... yeah. Huh. It's been seven years since I uploaded this...! I certainly never expected it to take off and in hindsight... I probably should've, people tend to like reharmonizations like this, I'd wager.

I'm going to ramble for a bit, don't mind me. I get the right to as it's been 7 years.

I think I must've been around 16 or 17 when I first put this out, and at the time, I was using this channel as a dumping ground for random ideas and videos that I couldn't put up on my "main" channel. This video was one of these, and I didn't ever expect it to blow up quite like it did.

I'm 24 now, I've got a full-time job, I've relocated across an entire continent, and many other things, wonderful and awful have happened in my life since. I've lost folks along the way, and I've made many new memories since. Life really does fly by when you don't pay attention, doesn't it?

I remember a long time ago, I was upset this video did well. "Why is this quickly thrown together piece of crap getting traction, but the piece I spent a few months trying to perfect is barely getting any attention?", I think was my thought process.

I was ready to take this down.

I disabled comments because of something along the lines of "People are annoying kids commenting the same things", which is an awful mindset to be in for a video like this - they're literally sharing what they feel. I guess I was into that cringe culture back then, eugh. I am glad I managed to pry myself out of that culture, honestly. And I outright said in the description, if my memory serves right, that "I will remove this video."

Well, I didn't. I realised that would've been poor of me to do. What would I really achieve other than upset a ton of people in the process? People who genuinely enjoyed listening to this "thrown together piece of crap", people who didn't care how much time I spent on it because they found it awesome?

And so, I've reinstated comments. I've left it up since and didn't disturb it, and then proceeded to not really use this channel, other than upload videos about whatever hyperfixations I was currently focusing on - Salamander, Gradius, Random janky cassette tapes with Eastern European and modern Middle Eastern music, and more - which is happening rarer and rarer, really.

I've done that, and I've just... well, focused on getting better, really. Better at my craft, better as a person, just... better in general.

I guess I could tell you who I am, but truth be told, I don't really want to. It doesn't feel right to, at least not seven years later. I feel like it'd disturb the relative "peace" this video has, as stupid as that might sound.

I don't really know what point I'm trying to make with this. It's a stream of consciousness from yours truly, really. This silly video really had me go through quite a bit, and I won't lie, it's fun to come back to this at an almost yearly pace at this point and reflect on myself? Where was I a year ago? How about three, or five?

I guess others just use a diary for that. Nah, I use a mildly-famous low-effort internet video that everyone can read and see.

Well, really, in any case, I'll sign off now. I'll probably be back by next year and all this will be gone, who knows. See you around!

-R

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