Original Video Date: 11/20/2022
So, I have never made something like this.
I think that if I ever go back in the future and think of a song that I made that influenced the rest of my music the most, or the most unique song I made, it might be this song. At least, it would be right now easily.
Although, I have no idea what I am going to do in the future, so I guess I’ll see what’s ahead of me.
But, for now, enjoy the song.

Lyrics:

Let’s make this quick
I’ve had a lot of regrets in my life
Some that I know are necessary for me to grow as a person
But some I would just rather throw away
and never have to deal with
Life can be hard sometimes
But it’s those special moments that you really gotta capture to enjoy your life
You need loved ones
self-esteem
and personality
You need to be able to have fun
and forget about the bad things once in a while
But what if you’re not able to do that?
What if you have a sort of disability
that doesn’t allow you to turn your brain off
and allow you to have fun?
I do not have this
but sometimes it feels like I do
This is what I mean

I do not want to
be part of a team that leaves me be
I mean that life has put me to the side
and left me open wide
And forced to confront all my daunting fears

I fear the one who owns the gun
and how he acts and runs
It almost seems undone
Legs spread out
arms are nailed on the cross

I sought the one who burns down the forest
One who acts as if nourished
One who lives like a tourist
Not aware of danger they are in
Time to begin

I want to be in society
as a fleshy human being
I only need a pinch
To be able to speak in front of a crowd
Please turn it the hell down
the music’s loud

I speak for myself
now you will go to hell
You stupid fucking satanic ballistic romantic
go eat a dick
Piece of shit

Anger’s overwhelming
don’t know where the hell I’m going
Everything around me’s soaring
do you know if help is on the way?
Hope it’s today
I just want you to be here
whispering things in my ear
It calms me
yearning for the ones who live above
Not to come

Blinking twice to know I need you
my whole body’s turning see through
Just like my bedroom
Weeping on the fresh, cozy blanket
I need this

I told you
So many regrets
You just need loved ones to support you
Things aren’t always this way, though
You’ll see

Yeah, 8 AM, time to get up
Getting up, skipping brunch, going to sleep
Things are too hard, but are also easy
Hoping that this day will give specialties
To the ones I always love the most
Now I hope for the day to end
but dread when it begins
And wanting to sleep
but then stay up till 3 AM
Being in my shoes can be really challengin’
Do you want the challenge of my life?
Will it suffice?

I fucking understand that having lots of friends (friends)
Can be really helpful
but cause problems in the end (end)
I’ve had my fair share of things I regret
Now I want my life in ways that won’t happen
I promise

You’re breathing too hard
you’re walking too slow (slow)
I’m running out of time
now I’m running back home (home)
My life in general is just better than yours
Do you understand our differences?
You better, friend

Now let’s get down to business
I know you want me to choke
Do you want to talk to me?
Or do you want to talk to the host?
I can bring you to him
You just might not like his tone
I could just cut off your limbs now
And save you time for the show

Yeah
Now there are many things that you and I should discuss
Let us start with age, name, gender, and city of origin
Yeah, I think that should be enough
Now, the host is a picky person
So you should be on your toes
All he really wants is
Something that makes you a unique person
Well, then, he’ll trust you enough

But, there are things that I am scared of
Many things
They shake me down to my core
I never get bored
But it’s something I do not trust
I do not want this for myself or anybody around me
There’s nothing that makes obnoxious,
Or stupid,
Or fucking contagious
I just want to be a normal person
Is that too much to ask?

I don’t really know

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