HAIRCUT: [ Ссылка ] Finally unloading all this old music! This song was one of my absolute favorites- so much so that I was holding onto it for the PeRfEcT TiMe to ReLeAsE iT. I wrote this song when I was in the thick of being molded to look like someone I wasn't, without the self-esteem to say no. I went through a few more years of vanity & insecurity before reaching the point I'm at today, which is a place of healing. My heart is sad for the version of me that felt so far from beautiful that I wanted to look like anyone else but me. I spent so much time, money, energy, effort and sadness on the most meaningless aspect of life- physical appearance. I'm working through a lot of shame, grief and disappointment in myself, edging closer and closer to forgiveness. Soon I'll be able to accept myself at all stages, I just gotta let it hurt a little while. I think it's a fair trade for the hurt I might have caused to so many little girls and boys who were modeling themselves after me. I've been a horrible influence, and I'll spend the rest of my life trying to undo the damage I might have caused. I fell victim to an industry that banks on the insecurity of women and led lots of little babies right into the fire with me.

If you were someone affected by videos of me crying about my hair, or my weight, or experimenting with fillers or botox... I am so, so sorry. I pray this message finds you and that I can pull you back up where you belong.

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