This video contains themes of family dynamics, infidelity, lying, and manipulation, which may trigger some viewers. Viewer discretion is advised.

I have never felt so angry and sad while editing a video.

The truth is, this video is old. This is not a remake. This used to be the original version of "FIRST BURN" ([ Ссылка ]), which I created when I was cheated on six months ago. However, I scrapped it because I had drawn it while shitfaced drunk and sobbing, and I thought it looked way too sketchy (It was around the time I freaked out in public /shame).

I then remade the video entirely, which is the version you're familiar with from August 2023. All I did today was put this original drawings together and finish editing it. As you can see, many frames from this version were reused or redrawn in the newer version, as well as the original ideas, and the symbolism remains consistent: daisies symbolize love, trust, and honesty, and the color scheme remains unchanged. The storytelling differs slightly, with Spottedleaf stepping up in the newer version and the characters being more confrontational.

So why am I sharing this now, after six months? Why is it relevant again?

Because it resonates strongly with my current emotions. I released "FIRST BURN" when I first learned about the cheating. In the past six months, I've lived through hell while uncovering layers of lies and cheating from the same person. It's a year worth of cheating and abuse. I learned that the rabbit hole I was in was a lot deeper than I thought. He had many other cases of infidelity, and as I found out about them I suffered through a lot of emotional and physical abuse. Yes, not only did that person have the courage to cheat on me multiple times for a year, he also had the guts to abuse me the more I found out. I stayed in that relationship until recently. Some of the beating left my wrist so hurt I couldn't draw anymore (hence why I disappeared for so long). My heart is broken, and what I once thought I could forgive now weighs heavily on me. I doubt the person in question will see this or even care, but I've made the decision to remove him from my life and story, just as he never considered me while committing these hurtful actions. I will pretend I never knew him and burn everything he ever gave me, much like Sandstorm in the video. Yes, revisiting this after so long does make me feel anxious but it gives me a sense of closure I have been longing for.

As for Sandstorm, she discovers of Firestar's infidelity and responds accordingly. People often place blame on Spottedleaf, but in my opinion, Firestar was the one at fault. He had a family and still couldn't value them enough. Cinderpelt remains the supportive friend she was in the other video. Like "FIRST BURN," consider this a sequel to my "Glimpse of Us" video ([ Ссылка ]).

Thank you for reading this far. Please refrain from arguing in the comments; this is ultimately MY interpretation of the books and a significant VENT for my emotions. It should not be considered the only definitive interpretation of the books for anyone.

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