Shoshana Bean performs "If I Own Today" at Scott Alan's CD Release event for 'Dreaming Wide Awake' on January 7, 2008. CD available on CDbaby.com/scottalan and iTunes.

BACKSTORY: I would say that 'If I Own Today' is my favorite song I have ever written. I would say that because it was this song that made me leave behind the 'easy' life, and fight for the life I am in now.

I was working at a good job, making great money and wonderful benefits, but I was an artist, and I wasn't being able to create art. I needed a change, but how do you leave that all behind for the unknown ?

Artists fight all the time, claiming there life would be better if they didn't have there talent. Business men and woman argue that they would give anything to be able to sing, or write, or draw. The grass is always greener on the other side. I will PROUDLY say, I would never give up the gifts I have been given for anything.

I struggle every day, I bartend till 4am in the morning nightly (not getting home till 7am most mornings, and then waking up around 11am to start all over again), but I couldn't imagine not writing. I couldn't imagine not taking advantage of the life I had planned for me before I was born (yes, I am spiritual in that way).

This song was written for me, to make me own the moment, and take control of my destiny. The only person that can motivate you to walking a new direction is you. My favorite line I ever wrote is in this song ... 'If my life was different/if there's something I could change/I'd take half of my passion/and turn it into strength.'

Having Shoshana sing this song at the Concert was ...well ...Magic. I could listen to Shoshana sing every day. Jesse, the MD for Dreaming Wide Awake, thinks I'm obsessed with Shoshana cause I have every bootleg of her from every show and all her demo's and I listen to them constantly. THAT VOICE ...It tells a beautiful story and it is the PERFECT voice to sing my music. It doesn't hurt that she is also an amazing support and wonderful friend to me.

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