One year ago, I fell to my knees and stared to a million miles of distance, crying for you to comeback. I remember calling your name, waiting for your response, waiting myself to wake up in this nightmare. I thought 365 days would at least make me feel less painful as i was hurt too much, but it didn’t. It has been 365 of your absence, 365 days of missing you, 365 days of “being strong”. It has been 365 days and I feel like everything is stronger than ever, but the pain inside of me is still incomparable with these words or anything. There was so much more I wanted to say to you. There was so much more I wanted to do. There was so much more I wanted to be. I thought we had more time. For a year that I’ve spent every day sharing your life with the world. Telling stories of the person who changed me from the first time we said hello. I never knew love was like till I’ve known it with you. This past year has been a time of sharing you with strangers and making them feel like they have known you and loved you too. And for more years to come, I will continue to spread the light and love you gave to me. As much as I want to be with you right now, I know my life will end when it is supposed to when it is in God's time, it's just hard to accept it. My heart is different now, and every day is a fight to accept that. I have remained strong and hopeful for you, I have kept my promise to always do what’s best for myself for my family and your family. You taught me how to be strong and do all things with my heart and that is how I continue to live. Though I lost the love of my life physically, I hold near and dear all of the memories we have shared and it is the best feeling in the world. We we’re not perfect, we were not always happy, and we did not always see eye to eye, just as any couple. That’s the truth BUT we were indeed in love. We still are. Each day, God is revealling His reason for this new path and He is slowy giving me the understanding why I need to continue. Though this life is not the same without you, I want you to know that I am happy for you. Happiest 1 year in heaven as an Angel of God. Just knowing that you are happy, that you are safe, that you are free, that is enough. May you bring happiness and an abundance of love this day. I will be loving you and missing you with all of me. Sending you my hugs and kisses right to the heaven. Iloveyousomuch and I always will.

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