This song transports me to my teenage years. Looking back, it was like my life hadn't really started then. Most of my experiences were built on what I had learnt from music and movies. Because of that, I romanticised my life through the lens of my favourite song lyrics and rationalised the dark moments as turning points of the movie that is life. No protagonist makes it to the end of their story unscathed. So, even when things were at their worst, I believed I was destined for a happy ending, because all the movies and songs had said so. I lived in a dream state, partly to cope and partly to make things seem more meaningful.
I wonder if in some way that's a symptom of being born in the turn of the millenium. The internet was our escape and it allowed us to do anything, be anything, consume anything. It was our after school club, our playground, our babysitter. I mean we knew more about the internet than our own parents did... Even better, we knew the internet better than we knew our own parents. And maybe we're fucked up because of it. They couldn't protect us. But did we need them to? We turned out fine... right?
Anyway, this song will always have a place in my heart. Around the time it came out, I had my first boyfriend. We would walk home together everyday and without fail, stop on the same street just to stand and talk for hours. We did this everyday for a year and it never got boring. I guess, we never ran out of things to talk about and it felt like the sun never stopped shining for as long as we talked.
If life was one long movie, I would want the ending to feel just how those moments felt. But instead, I've started to think of life as a series of shorter movies. In one life we experience so many different plots, with different protagonists and different endings. While we have our favourites, and those that we'd never think of rewatching, every story we have makes us who we are. We have to try to honour it all, in order to honour ourselves.
Love & enjoy x
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