Lyrics & info below:
This is definitely the most vulnerable song I wrote - thanks for listening!
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Lyrics:
Uh,
Lately I been on edge
And I’m only like one step
away from psychedelics
& I
I got some friends
diagnosed schizophrenics
Perceptive but disconnected
close to psychopathic
My life a mess
Been drinking since 6AM
The closer the reaper get
I feel it in my solar plexus
I Hold my breath
& try to kill my old self
& take away what I was
& make way for who I am
Wussup
I’m out for blood
Pour it up
I shed my skin now & then
But then I bend & I fold
Back to old shit again
I’m out for good like I should
All I can hear is a jinn
& not the good one of them
I feel like sinning again
I took the bus to the brink
I’m on the ledge of the cliff
I’m on the cusp of just sinking
Into the depth of abyss
I can’t be cuffing a link
I can’t be loving no bitches
This shit is tough on its own
I’m already unbalanced
I put my sweat & tears to it
I put my heart & soul & blood & every bit of my cell fluid
I cannot fail
I put my self whole (hole) until I fell through it
You wasn’t there
When I seen everyone have faith in me then lose it
Damn homie
They don’t want me to fall
But they don’t see the alternative
Your purpose is only determined
By whether your worthy of even deserving it
One thing that I’m really learning is
Nothing is certain & nothing is permanent
I’mma keep burning through my inner turbulence
Until we figure it out
But the question is
Hook:
Will I flop?
Will I fold?
Only God (can judge me)
Really know
Will I drop?
Will I fall?
Only God (can judge me)
Really know
Will I stop?
Will I slow up?
Probably not
But only God knows
Take a shot
I’m not sure
I’ll take my chances
& see how far I go-o-whoa
Verse 2:
Uh
Lately I been on edge
Ever Since my grandma passed
It’s been tougher for my family
Especially both my parents
& They all that we got left
When God call me collect
I start crying out my confessions
Susceptible to regress
My patience is growing thin
Can’t tolerate any less
Than what I view as full respect
This my
S.O.S
a victim to being molested
Way back when I was a kid
But I still dont know how it affected me
I guess I suffered a lil anger problem
I’m stuck with a lil rage
he took advantage of me once
I can’t let it happen again
So I might suddenly lose temper
Without a reason to explain
I guess the truth of fact is
It stem way back to that day
He was like 14 years old
I was like four maybe five
I rarely brought it up to no one
My family doesn’t know about it
& Maybe that’s why I been drinking
& I dont ever deal with real life
I spend my day just escaping
& I think a part of me died
As soon as my grandma did
I dont know what to do without her
Now all I think about is death
& how it’s affecting my mama
Don’t get my started on my dad
He’s The strongest man alive
My jolly nature from him
& happiness from my grandmama
& all the love that I give
I get all that from my mom
But I’m beginning to lose everything
I been lost in the passata
Losing touch with Godddd
But I thank him for the blessings given
I know he’ll take me where I wanna gooo
But the question is
(Hook)
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